Does he see how much it hurts me as he goes on and on about her? Obviously not since he continues on,oblivious to my pain. I try hard not to be jealous,but it's no use. The heart does what it does, despite what i want. Even though i know it makes things worst, I still stay around him. Despite the harm it does, I continue to shadow him, playing the role of best friend, waiting. It's February, Valentines is slowly approaching. I know soon he'll begin to tell me all about his plans for her,what he'll give her,what he'll say, and I'll just nod and smile, pretending it doesn't bother me. It's all lies. But I don't care. At least I can still see his smile. Sometimes i ask, why me? But I know there will never be an answer. So I'll continue smiling, laughing, lieing. Anything just to be able to see him everyday. He might not see how much it hurts, and he probably never will. But that's the path I chose when I decided to let myself love him. Besides, the heart wants what it wants, never mind what i choose.
~~Happy Valentines Day~~